Saturday, May 24, 2008

Moving Along? I Hope So.

I should be working on Ashley's wedding right now, but I logged on so I had to write about a few things...

I'll probably be leaving NC next week to start a new chapter of my life. At first I was so eager to leave, because I felt like I had nothing left here/ I'm wasting my life ect./ ect. But now I'm not so completely eager to go. I do have something. I have friends. I don't have many, but nonetheless I have them. And its just hard to leave when you feel like you're so close to people and you know that you don't have to leave. But this is something that I have to do if I'm ever going to do anything with my life. So to my friends- "Goodbye, and read this thing because this is probably going to be the best way to keep up with me unless you just want to call me every now and then. That would be better, but it doesn't always work out that way." I don't even know why I'm writing about this on here, but maybe someone will come across it someday and know that I'm not leaving because I'm a sad, depressed person that needs something new to make me happy. It's just better this way.
For this is who we are,
Reinventing who we were.
The past reshaped-
Every breath now makes
The last fall into memory.

-That's part of a poem that I'm working on. I just thought it fit well in this context.

I'm going to continue working on my "book" one of these days too. I had a pretty good start, but then I realized I needed something- PLANNING. Duh! So, because of the way that I have to meticulously map out everything because of the way I think its going to take a while. Plus I haven't been reading and studying enough good stories to get mine going. Characters and overall events first. Then everthing else will fall into place. (Hopefully). But from what I have now, I'm going to need a lot of characters. UGH. And I'm trying to steer a little from conventional, but I may have to start out with a basic generic structure and then destructure it later. We'll see. I came across my character descriptions so I just had to say something about it.

Well, time for a 24 hour session with my computer and two angles of a video. I hope this goes well. I atleast know the vows are good. I kinda want this to turn out oldschool 8mm homevideo looking. Yet with a professional edge to it. Or actually professional with an oldschool 8mm edge would sound better. Enough procrastinating...


A friend Of A Friend said...

Jeremy, doing something like this is a bold move. To experience new things, new places, and new situations help you grow. You get to find out who YOU are, what YOU are capable of. To stand on your own and become the man that you’re meant to be. You will learn your strengths and your weaknesses… with that will come the self-confidence that you can live your life no matter what happens… because at times you will make mistakes, you will fail, and you may fall down… but you will be okay, you will survive. The secret is to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move on. You will need to make your own decisions and be able to live with the decisions you have made. You alone are responsible for your life. Don’t be afraid of the difficult times; they shape you, give you a new perspective, and give you wisdom.

Anyways, nothing says you can’t ever go back home… whenever you are ready. You will come back a new man, a different man, and a stronger man with confidence in yourself.

Your true friends will remain your friends whether you come back or not. And you don’t need ‘lots’ of friends… you just need those few real true friends that you can count on and that you know will be there, just like you would be for them. Figure out who those friends are and cultivate those relationships.

Good luck with whatever path you decide to take for YOUR future. To make this move, which is a difficult decision, maybe a little scary… but you did it anyways. I feel that this first step is a good indicator of who you are to become.

LoveDeath said...

thanks friend's friend.