I should be working on Ashley's wedding right now, but I logged on so I had to write about a few things...
I'll probably be leaving NC next week to start a new chapter of my life. At first I was so eager to leave, because I felt like I had nothing left here/ I'm wasting my life ect./ ect. But now I'm not so completely eager to go. I do have something. I have friends. I don't have many, but nonetheless I have them. And its just hard to leave when you feel like you're so close to people and you know that you don't have to leave. But this is something that I have to do if I'm ever going to do anything with my life. So to my friends- "Goodbye, and read this thing because this is probably going to be the best way to keep up with me unless you just want to call me every now and then. That would be better, but it doesn't always work out that way." I don't even know why I'm writing about this on here, but maybe someone will come across it someday and know that I'm not leaving because I'm a sad, depressed person that needs something new to make me happy. It's just better this way.
For this is who we are,
Reinventing who we were.
The past reshaped-
Every breath now makes
The last fall into memory.
-That's part of a poem that I'm working on. I just thought it fit well in this context.
I'm going to continue working on my "book" one of these days too. I had a pretty good start, but then I realized I needed something- PLANNING. Duh! So, because of the way that I have to meticulously map out everything because of the way I think its going to take a while. Plus I haven't been reading and studying enough good stories to get mine going. Characters and overall events first. Then everthing else will fall into place. (Hopefully). But from what I have now, I'm going to need a lot of characters. UGH. And I'm trying to steer a little from conventional, but I may have to start out with a basic generic structure and then destructure it later. We'll see. I came across my character descriptions so I just had to say something about it.
Well, time for a 24 hour session with my computer and two angles of a video. I hope this goes well. I atleast know the vows are good. I kinda want this to turn out oldschool 8mm homevideo looking. Yet with a professional edge to it. Or actually professional with an oldschool 8mm edge would sound better. Enough procrastinating...