Sunday, December 30, 2007

Of wasted days and sleepless nights

Well, I feel as if my whole life is nothing but a waste right now. I sleep all day and work all night. Even when I am awake duing the day, my circadium rhythm is screaming 4/8 time at me while my life wishes to be a song in 4/4. It feels like the song drags on and on but then when you get to the end of the page its like "wait, that's all?" I guess what I'm saying is that with this job, my life has become nothing but work, sleep, eat, reapeat. I hate it. It causes me to be so frustrated some times. Its not that hard of a job, but I would rather work it during the day, so I can actually do normal things like cook dinner once and a while. I remember just yesterday I was like "Hey, I'll do something special for my parents tonight. I'll cook them some of that pasta type stuff I made while being in college. But wait, I have to freakin' work tonight!" While most people are out shooting fireworks or eating blackeyed peas and rice Monday night, guess what I'll be doing. I'll be patrolling the floors of the Hilton. So Happy New Year to everyone I'll never see until next year.


Lacee said...

You know, I ran into this a lot over the past year. Then I've slowly realized that I can't get my childhood back. I can't go back to the past, as much as I miss it. The only thing to do is go forward. Adults work for a living, and it can be a drag. It's part of growing up.

But I think it's the little things in life that keep us going. The pretty sunset or sunrise, a moment when something funny happens, the instant where you witness a child's innocence, precious time with your family, and those moments where you can just slow down for a minute and thank God for all that you have.

It's not easy, and this is a cruel world. But what more can we do than enjoy the little gifts of life along the way? And remember them? We just have to keep an eye out for them, and not rush so much to the next appointment that we miss the the good things right in front of us.

That's my two cents. xD

Lovedeathsdeath said...

Thanks Lacee, that really means a lot.