Saturday, January 26, 2008

I've Bled So Much I Must Be Dead

I used to care so much about people. It used to hurt me to see others dealing with their hurts in all kinds of destructive ways. For some reason lately though, I've just had this attitude of "People are people and people hurt other people." And I've gotten over the fact that everyone hurts sometimes. Oh, God where is the me that used to be me? Please forgive me World for despising you in all of your wickedness and not doing anything about it. God please help me to see that they are hurting and need healing. Everyone hurts sometimes. I liked myself best when I hurt all of the time, not for myself but for others. Take a chainsaw to this hardened heart and let me bleed again.

2 comments:

Lacee said...

I understand what you mean. I'm not too sure what causes it either. Everyone has their problems. Though, I think of how when there was so much going on around Jesus, and all the troubles he was going though, how he still stopped to help others with their problems. Helping others seems to help me sometimes, even if I don't feel like it. Besides that, I don't have much to offer except prayer. :)

Lovedeathsdeath said...

Thanks Lacee.